He promised to keep the boy with him always to give the son comfort. As a father, your child comes first. But now at the time, the father won't give up hope as death takes hold of him. They, the father and son, were always lucky. He believes in the luck and hope of a brighter tomorrow.
-Kaylee Nolan
In our world, life is generally seen as preferable to death, but this is not necessarily true in the world of the father and son. To them, suicide is not an act of depression, nor an act of sin. It is merely a quiet surrender to the inevitability of death, a last act of unity. However, as Kaylee says/writes in her blog, the father's love for his son forces him to hold back, out of some desperate hope for his son's future. For anyone, imagining the future without a loved family member is, to put it simply, difficult. For the son, imagining the future without his father is impossible. But for the dying father, it is possible -- and preferable to no future at all. He cannot kill his son, not for all the promises in the world. And I am grateful that Kaylee gave me an excuse to write about this, because it's such an interesting concept.
To the father, in all but his weakest moments, life is still preferable to death. He wants his son to live, to have a chance to be happy, regardless of the suffering he will face. No matter what world he's living in, no matter who is with him, no matter any circumstances. Something, anything, is preferable to nothing. The known is preferable to the unknown. Life is preferable to death. The dying man said so.
P.S. Ironically, Blogger spell-check doesn't recognize the word "blog". Or "blogger", for that matter...
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